Every year, I feel like there is something I lose that I must grieve.
Sometimes it’s a relationship, other times it’s things or a person.
More often than not, it’s health related...as in I’m no longer able to do something or I have to make a decision to stop something so something else can happen.
I started experiencing this over 10 years ago before my brain surgery, when I was told I couldn’t ride roller coasters or ever skydive or scuba dive more than 10 feet.
I was crushed. Things I’ve loved for so long and lifetime bucket list goals down the drain.
And this year, I continue to experience that in various forms.
If I want to be able to do many of the things I do now, I have to limit my driving, staying out late or even the number of times I hang out in a week.
I thought I had already adjusted this enough in my chronic illness journey, but my body is still telling me I need to adjust more.
It’s hard.
Not everyone understands.
Heck, sometimes we don’t ourselves as we go through it.
It’s okay to grieve.
There is no specific timeframe of how long healthily grieving takes, as it’s different for everyone.
But once you healthily grieve, make sure you GO. Take that next first step in whatever way God is leading you to.
Don’t stay stuck and stagnant; that eventually leads to backwards.
Take as long as you need to grieve, then take that next step of faith and hope into the next season of you life.
It won’t feel like it at the moment, but I promise you it gets better.
