I can’t tell you why I can walk in heels again on some days.
Some days I can.
Some days I need my flat, cushioned shoes.
Some days I can knock out a CRAZY amount on my to-do list as if I don’t have any conditions, let alone multiple.
Some days all I can do is lay in bed.
Most days now look like this: getting lots done, with some rest in between from pain, then resume the day until it is time for bed...where most of the pain comes out as an accumulation from all I’ve done that day.
Sometimes I end the night in tears from pain.⠀
Most nights end with an ice pack, deep breaths, Netflix (now Disney+🤣) and cuddles with the hubby, with prayer and gratitude of all God has done.
And then I do it all over again.
I can’t tell you why I’m able to do the things I can with the mindset I do...except that the only answer is Jesus.
It doesn’t matter if I can get a lot done, or get nothing done because of my conditions.
It doesn’t matter if I have a minimal symptom day, or a heavy, debilitating day.
It doesn’t matter what people think of how much or how little I can do in regards to my conditions. (Even the questioning, doubtful ones common with invisible illnesses and disabilities.)
What I believe and what matters is this: I live my life for the One who gave His life for me.
Not for healing.
Not for accolades.
Not even for my purpose.
(Though I still struggle at times in my flesh.)
I live for the One who gave His all.
And friend, when this truth becomes reality for you, that is where the true healing is.
The beautiful truth, is that He gave His all and His life FOR YOU too.
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