Are you doing the things you want to be doing to be the person you want to be and fulfill the purpose set out for you?
Beauty is if you're not, you have the ability to change it and make it happen.
Not out of guilt or shame, but because the truth is, no matter what you do, you're still fully loved and accepted by God.
It is this love that drives you to change from the inside out.
So if you're going to be anything, be the child of God who believes that more! The other stuff will follow.