Your traumatic past can leave you with not being able to believe complements and to feel uncomfortable receiving love even though you so desperately want it.
It can lead you to believe that your emotions aren't valid so you protect them. It brings you to overthink "little things"and to need assurance.
It makes it hard to trust and and often times, you end up having decreased self-worth.
But when you have someone beside you and loves you so much that they are willing to be with you through your healing with patience, love and compassion, it makes going through the process that much easier.
When you have someone come alongside your healing that points you to the greatest Healer, who has infinite love, patience and compassion for you, that is the BEST.
Pray for your [future] spouse to be that person. Pray for you to be that person for them too.