Welcome to my first blog post!
I didn't want to go live yet, because I didn't have the pictures I wanted, the website wasn't set up the way I wanted, and the list went on and on.
At my church, they often say, "It's okay, to not be okay." God loves you just as you are; there is nothing more or less that you could do to change how much He already unconditionally, immensely, and graciously loves you. I know this, yet I struggle with believing it in my heart at times.
I announced last September that we were transitioning the business into a blog. And here we are almost 11 months later, and I still haven't went live because of wanting it to be perfect. Don't get me wrong. I am not saying that we should not strive to be the best, nor should we not want things to be amazing before completing something.
But sometimes, perfection is overrated. Sometimes, perfection sucks the life and happiness out of you. Lastly, perfection can draw you further away from God.
Me wanting the blog to have perfect pictures, be in the perfect format, and have perfect content was draining the life and happiness out of me. There was always something that I could do better. There was always someone who I was comparing myself to. At the rate I was going, I would never start.
For me, the most important thing I found, was that it was drawing me further away from God. This may look different for everyone, but for me, it did this in two main ways. One, it was making me believe that I was doing this on my own- that the successes and failures of what would happen, fall solely on me, instead of leaning on God. And secondly, it was putting a gigantic, never-ending red light on what I believed to be a dream, calling and passion of mine.
After much reflection and realization, it was no wonder I would feel more pressure, more disappointment, more discouragement, and more discontent because I wasn't doing what I felt and believed I was supposed to be doing...all because of perfection.
So today, I am saying goodbye to perfection! (Temporarily, at least...I'm a work in progress!)
The follow-up to what my church says is this, "It's okay to not be okay. It's NOT okay to stay there."
It's okay that I let perfection, excuses, and fear run my [delayed] blog for awhile. God loves me just as I am. It's not okay to stay here. You will see my mess ups, you will see my accomplishments, you will see my pain and fears, as well as my joys. There will be typos, there will be pictures from my camera phone and incomplete blog pages. But I will no longer let perfection get a hold of my future!
Today, I take this step!
Does perfection steal your joy or dreams? Affect your marriage? Parenting? Career? How does perfection affect your life?
Lots of Love,
Phoebe Grace